"Super No Eating Disorder". Eating disorder recovery superhero. Conquering ED one bite at a time.
Can't say that there was anything tragic or drastic that triggered these thoughts and reflections that I currently have. Maybe there's something about it being the end of the year and finally having a bit of quiet space away from work and school. At the same time it's been AWHILE since I've done any "real" … Continue reading Atelophobia
We've all played hide-and-seek as a child. Some of us better and seeking than hiding; Some of us better at hiding than seeking. The latter is where my mastery lays. This concept of hiding has been on my mind for the last few weeks, enough to pull me out of my hiatus from writing. There … Continue reading Hide-and-Seek
Yes, it's 10:42PM and yes, I had an "almost midnight" ice cream snack. Why? Because I knocked out two hours ago and dreamt of ice cream. It had to happen. Why???!!! ...because recovery!!!
The ability to self-encourage in recovery is an incredibly difficult skill. We've spent countless hours in DBT groups, CBT groups, Body Acceptance groups, Shame groups, etc... practicing, in hopes of creating new neuropathways to equip ourselves for this long journey to full recovery. Although this is a necessary tool to have, it is probably one of the … Continue reading The Gifts of Encouragement
Do you remember the elation that the mere thought of going to Disneyland would incite when you were a child? Unable to go to sleep because you could barely contain the excitement within your little kid body as you planned your entire Mickey and friends day. What about Christmas Eve and the fervency to stay … Continue reading Dwindling Dreams…
Some days, staying in recovery, staying recovery minded, or even believing that full recovery exists...feels impossible. When you've been trekking up and down the recovery path for over a decade, like I have, it becomes exhausting. Sometimes it feels like the further self awareness I gain, the more I long for and dream of full … Continue reading Chronic???
Yes, yes, I know, I'm a week late with this, but bear with me! The end of the trimester is a very busy time for teachers. Furthermore, I was busy living daily life...as we all should be! Life has been getting in the way of my ED...oh darn! ED's infuriated, but I keep shutting him … Continue reading I HAD/HAVE NO IDEA…
On the last day of IOP treatment, my therapist blew my mind...well, kind of... I've been exploring this idea behind self empowerment - what it means to me, what it means to others, how it's accomplished, and how it aligns and coincides with extrinsic motivation. By extrinsic motivation, I'm not talking about material objects or … Continue reading The Delicate Balance Between Self Empowerment versus Extrinsic Motivation
The recovery process from an eating disorder is, unfortunately, not a linear one. It's not as though we can "abstain" from food, like drugs and alcohol, because food is necessary for human existence. It's not like weight gain or loss could gauge our psychological progress (nor is it an effective or healthy method). It's incredibly … Continue reading Maybe I’m not as recovered as I thought?
So, this has been a challenging weekend for me where my ED has NOT been happy whatsoever with the food choices that I have made. However, the REAL me inside just really, really, really wanted to have a normal birthday weekend and just celebrate with cake and ice cream like most "normal" people do. Cake … Continue reading I-D-E-N-T-I-T-Y???
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