Atelophobia

Can't say that there was anything tragic or drastic that triggered these thoughts and reflections that I currently have. Maybe there's something about it being the end of the year and finally having a bit of quiet space away from work and school. At the same time it's been AWHILE since I've done any "real" …

Holy pizza…cookie…ice cream???

For the next two weeks, I'll be traveling around the northwester area of the United States - why? Just because. Seeing different areas of the country I live in.  Tonight, I'm in Chicago. The Windy City. Home of the Chicago pizza. So, when in Chicago, do what the Chicagoans (???) do? Eat the real life, …

Hide-and-Seek

We've all played hide-and-seek as a child. Some of us better and seeking than hiding; Some of us better at hiding than seeking. The latter is where my mastery lays. This concept of hiding has been on my mind for the last few weeks, enough to pull me out of my hiatus from writing. There …

Why??? Because…

Yes, it's 10:42PM and yes, I had an "almost midnight" ice cream snack. Why? Because I knocked out two hours ago and dreamt of ice cream. It had to happen. Why???!!! ...because recovery!!!

Summer and Recovery

 Ahhh...do you hear it? *Silence* Wait, you can't hear it?! *Silence* School's out for the summer, and boy, I'm enjoying the freedom and relaxation thus far. This is the first week out, so everything is still "refreshing". I love my job, the kids this year were great, but I need to recharge and rest in …

Are you RSVP-ing to the Pity Party???

We all seek validation, compassion, and an empathetic ear. We need the love and acknowledgement that others care. We want to feel important and recognized. We're human; to seek this is a natural desire. However, is there a point where one can OVER seek validation, compassion, and empathy from others which makes something beneficial, detrimental? …

Weight ain’t nuthin’ but a number…right???

Our culture automatically defines weight loss as happiness. We all know it's all diet industry marketing BS trying to slither into our wallets. So, if we know the truth, why is it that we buy into these money making deceptions? I've been down the "10 Days to a New Body and Happier You!" path, and …

Complacent??? Stagnant??? Do more??? Do less???

Ever since I could remember, I was told to be satisfied with what I've got. Period. End of story. Because I was blessed to be born into a life where my material needs were met, constant contentment was mandatory, and if I was feeling anything else, it was because I was not working hard enough …

Anorexstalgia and New “Normal” Life Challenges

This weekend I was having some "anorexstalgia" where I was and still kind of am really missing my dear old "friend" *coughcoughenemy*. It sounds like sheer craziness...RIGHT?! ED (eating disorder): Oh, don't you miss the times when everything seemed easier? You didn't have to do much thinking because I took care of that for you! …

Rose Colored Glasses…

So, this is a very thought provoking, reflective, and confusing time of the year for me - no, not because it's the new year and all that, but because I could not have imagined that I'd be where I'm at today, writing a pro recovery and anti-eating disorder blog, this time last year. January 2013 …