Rock. Bottom.

What is your rock bottom? Where the F even is rock bottom? When it comes to our eating disorders, how do we know if we’ve hit our rock bottom? Is it written in a book?Determined by a number on the scale?Fall between a specific BMI range?Is it measured by how functional we are in our …

Atelophobia

Can't say that there was anything tragic or drastic that triggered these thoughts and reflections that I currently have. Maybe there's something about it being the end of the year and finally having a bit of quiet space away from work and school. At the same time it's been AWHILE since I've done any "real" …

Hide-and-Seek

We've all played hide-and-seek as a child. Some of us better and seeking than hiding; Some of us better at hiding than seeking. The latter is where my mastery lays. This concept of hiding has been on my mind for the last few weeks, enough to pull me out of my hiatus from writing. There …

Chasing Recovery

Recovery plays hard to get! #rude! As much as we want recovery to look like the top half of this picture...it's so not! How unfair is that?! We run after it (only if you're on the appropriate exercise level for it 😋), fall into a hole, sprain our ankle, keep hobbling on crutches, then throw …

No. Comment.

  The best "body comments" you can give to someone struggling with or recovering from anorexia is NOTHING AT ALL. Even the well intentioned, "You look great!", and the, "I'm so jealous, look how thin you are!", or, "OMG you look perfect!", are damaging in their own rights. There's also the, "You eat like a …

Mind Your Ps and Qs!!!

I never understood why it's the letter "P" and "Q"...anyone know? Anyway, back to our originally scheduled program. Why is it that everyone who "knows" you, or thinks they "know you" offer unsolicited comments regarding your appearance and food?! (Please don't mind my passive aggressive commentary :-D) "Oh, you look amazing - did you lose …

Summer and Recovery

 Ahhh...do you hear it? *Silence* Wait, you can't hear it?! *Silence* School's out for the summer, and boy, I'm enjoying the freedom and relaxation thus far. This is the first week out, so everything is still "refreshing". I love my job, the kids this year were great, but I need to recharge and rest in …

Dear Student…

To my 12-year-old student, A feeling of melancholy and concern washed over me when you asked me about the calories of the "junk food" you consumed, and if half of that would only be half the amount of calories. I replied telling you, "You don't need to worry about calories", and how, "Food is not …

Arbitrary Lines and Loops: 0123456789

Density...gravity...load...substance...matter...weight... Which word stood out to you the most? Probably the last one, right? Most likely because we live in a society that is captivated by the lines and loops that appear on the rectangular, metal device that's used to measure our gravitational pull towards Earth's core. I've continuously attempted to disassociate myself from this …