What is your rock bottom? Where the F even is rock bottom? When it comes to our eating disorders, how do we know if we’ve hit our rock bottom? Is it written in a book?Determined by a number on the scale?Fall between a specific BMI range?Is it measured by how functional we are in our … Continue reading Rock. Bottom.
Serious Secrets
It’s been quite awhile since I last wrote - definitely a long time coming. They say you’re only as sick as your secrets. There’s truth in that. In my home/culture/heritage, mental illness will forever be a point of contention; it was and never will be recognized as a “real” or serious condition. If it’s not … Continue reading Serious Secrets
Atelophobia
Can't say that there was anything tragic or drastic that triggered these thoughts and reflections that I currently have. Maybe there's something about it being the end of the year and finally having a bit of quiet space away from work and school. At the same time it's been AWHILE since I've done any "real" … Continue reading Atelophobia
Holy pizza…cookie…ice cream???
For the next two weeks, I'll be traveling around the northwester area of the United States - why? Just because. Seeing different areas of the country I live in. Tonight, I'm in Chicago. The Windy City. Home of the Chicago pizza. So, when in Chicago, do what the Chicagoans (???) do? Eat the real life, … Continue reading Holy pizza…cookie…ice cream???
Hide-and-Seek
We've all played hide-and-seek as a child. Some of us better and seeking than hiding; Some of us better at hiding than seeking. The latter is where my mastery lays. This concept of hiding has been on my mind for the last few weeks, enough to pull me out of my hiatus from writing. There … Continue reading Hide-and-Seek
Insta it up!!!
We NEDA Talk About It…
How coincidental that this years NEDA Awareness Week topic is, "It's time to talk about it". That's kind of been my attitude within these last few months. Our secrets keep us sick, mine, especially, has kept me sick for over a decade. For the first five to six years, I kept my struggles a secret … Continue reading We NEDA Talk About It…
Valentine’s Day
A day where is everything is about love. However, the love seems to be focused around others. Giving gifts to significant others, and finding that "perfect" Valentine to be loved by. It's also a day where Celine Dion's prominent song, "All by myself" can be heard blaring out of the windows of those who are … Continue reading Valentine’s Day
Eat, Pray…
...Love? For the last 4.5 months, I've been involved in a relationship with a significant other (bf); The longest relationship I've been in with a real, caring human. I recently suggested we take a break. For the last 14 years, I've been involved in a relationship with a possessive, abusive shape shifter, "ED". I've broken … Continue reading Eat, Pray…
Why??? Because…
Yes, it's 10:42PM and yes, I had an "almost midnight" ice cream snack. Why? Because I knocked out two hours ago and dreamt of ice cream. It had to happen. Why???!!! ...because recovery!!!
Super NED 